you can get me all of dishwalla's albums.(:

i'd be a liar if i wouldn't admit,
all of your hell gave me a higher lift.

i had jin wee today!pork chop.yum.

i used to dream that all the cousins would stay together in one big compound with many houses.something like those town houses in australia!thn we could have one house to ourselves and there would only be ONE house with scv which everybody would crash to watch cartoon network.or starworld.or axn or espn whatever.and at siglap!at the top of jalan jamal and 4th street,there's this little group of town houses.i wish we all could live and have fun everyday.

but that dream was how long ago.

i realised that if all of us stay together,parents would be quarreling over who should pay for the scv and aunty pam wouldn't pay anyone to babysit megan or jordan and we'll be pulling our hairs with jordan running around uh,bare.LOL.

weird eh?

i begin to wonder through all of today;
how it would be,if the addiction had stayed?

i got a quite pissed in class today.but sometimes,i really think this particular teacher has no common sense.

tessa:who said that i have been talking to audrey sooooooo much?
teacher:i cannot tell you.
tessa:why?i have the right to know.
teacher:i cannot tell you!i have to protect the privacy and the safety of the teachers.

privacy,i can understand that.BUT SAFETY?!

tessa:safety?SAFETY?!what can i do,murder them?

for the privacy and safety of the teacher,her name shall be kept confidential.except for those who already know the situation.
really,safety.

sometimes i wish i never existed and i wish you'll never die.
so we'll never have to see each other.
so you'll never feel the pain and i'll never feel the hurt.
so there's nothing to let go off and there's nothing to hold on to.

so that there's no bloody o levels to study for and there's no collection of results shit.

when all your love is gone,who will save me?

a sore eye
a blocked ear
a blistered finger
a bleeding heart
a wrecked gut
a sprained toe

a tortured brain

to mops and pops:
i'll still love you more tomorrow.